sheer potentiality

Sometimes, I come to realize that I truly don’t have a life. I don’t have friends to hang out with. Not at all. And like it or not, I get depressed over it. Not that depressed, and not often, but it happens. It actually happens quite frequently. But the people I know who have lives aren’t any happier than me.

I don’t know. I guess going on and on about it on my blog doesn’t help either. Who wants to read about it? But it’s important. This blog is for myself more than anything. Anyone else who wants to read it is welcome to, and I hope someone out there actually cares about me enough to read this. I do get several unique visitors a week. Well, only a few.

I don’t know how I feel, or what I want. Happiness is so fleeting. I must find a way to be happy and stay happy. But how?

Ah, such is my life…

[Note: I liked this comment (to this post) enough that I added it when I moved it over from my old blog]

Phil, I know what makes every man happy. Women and booze…maybe not in that order.

Where there’s cheap booze then there’s usually cheap women. I’ll share that ‘lil wisdom with you.

Seriously though…

I think, that regardless of wealth, women, health or what-ever-else, that it is human nature to pity yourself and feel that you should have more. Never is anything ever enough.

At least it is that way with most people. Only people on pills never have up’s or down’s.

That’s all right, I guess. But, eventually if you get what you want and you still feel a hole in your life…than maybe you were trying to fill it with the wrongs things. That’s beside the point though.

I’m sure you’ll make plenty of friends at college, and even if you don’t…remember that friends aren’t everything. Actually, they can be a real pain in the arse. Family is much more important. Friends will only like you for so long, or the good ones die…kind of like dogs.

Anyway, you’ve always got me, Phil. I’m here for you, and you’re young yet and have a long time to figure out what’ll make you happy. Hopefully, you’ll find it.

I think a lot of people spend years of their life trying to answer the question ‘what’ll make me happy?’ So, you shouldn’t fear that you haven’t figured it out yet.

Yours truley.

Todd

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